When I was in college I went out with this girl that I never should have let get away. Roxanne was smart and funny and she was very pretty. She was a year behind me and I was crazy about her. Maybe a little bit too crazy about her. I think that I scared her with my talk about getting married and having kids. She just wasn’t ready for that. I was devastated when she broke up with me.
It all worked out though. I did eventually get over her, graduated college, and then I met my wife and we had a couple of kids and everything was good. But I still think about her from time to time.
Maybe I think about her a little more than I used to now that I’ve discovered Rhode Island Dolls in Woonsocket, RI and that one dancer that I just can’t get enough of. It’s not that there’s anything going on with her. Nothing like that. But she reminds me so much of my college girlfriend and whenever I go to the club I kind of relive my glory days. I’m not sure my wife would like that so much but she does like that when I come home from the strip club I’m in a good mood and I buy her flowers and we usually end up having amazing sex. I love my wife. She doesn’t need to know every thought that goes through my head, does she?
Anyway, this dancer, she looks just like my college girlfriend. Her laugh even reminds me of her. I remember the first time I saw her at RI Dolls, I had to look twice. I had stopped off there on a Friday night with a couple of work friends. When we walked in the door, it was kind of dark and I had to wait for my eyes to adjust. But when they did, this dancer was on the stage and I thought for sure that was Roxanne.
She was down to a bra and panty set and she wasn’t looking directly at us but from her profile – well, I thought I was losing my mind. When I got closer, I realized that it wasn’t her of course. But wow – she was a very close resemblance.
Now, when I go to the club, and this dancer is working, I like to pretend that she’s Roxanne. Roxanne has apparently come upon some hard times and she’s working there. I talk to her and she tells me about what is going on in her life. She says that she never should have broken up with me because it started a trend of dating idiots that just weren’t worth her time. She knew she shouldn’t have broken up with me but she had to learn the hard way.
I ask her if there’s anything I can do to help her but she tells me there is not. She actually likes working at the club. She asks if I’d like a private dance for old times sake and I agree. She takes me to the private dance area and she starts to do her thing. The entire time she’s looking me in the eye as she licks her lips and swivels her hips, dancing to an old song that we used to make out to.
Her hands rove over her body and run through her hair as she looks at me with the beautiful brown eyes that I used to look into so often. We don’t talk. She just performs this very sensual dance for me.
Of course, Roxanne never did anything like that for me in real life and even though I did pay for lots of private dances from the stripper that looked like Roxanne, there was little by way of conversation between us. The dancer was always polite but she was doing her job. I do know that.
It’s is fun to pretend that the dancer at Rhode Island Dolls is my old girlfriend, Roxanne. But I know it is just pretend. I do like the way she makes me feel young again.
When the night is over, I go home to my wife. We have good conversation together and we put the kids to bed. We might watch some television or something. In the end, I know that Roxanne was not the right girl for me. My wife was. But it is kind of fun to relive the college days a little bit again.